(I know I wrote a novel so don’t feel compelled to read the whole thing)
I just wanted to give back to the community that helped me make a decision while I was on the fence. The following depicts my thoughts and emotions during the 3 weeks leading up to my piercing.
I guess first I should start with just a little bit of back story. I first discovered the PA about 6-8 months ago, while search for a way to secure myself in a chastity device. The problem being that when I went limp I slipped out of them, but that a whole other story. Anyway my original thought was that a snowball would have a better chance of surviving in hell than anyone would of getting a needle down there on me. However my searches seemed to indicate that when it comes to a “grower” slipping out of the tube is inevitable without a piercing. Some of you are probably wondering why I would ever choose to seal my little guy away. Well you see I was playing with him…allot. Now I am not saying that playing with your friend from down under is a bad thing but I feel like I was doing it way too much. I ran some math. In one year I lose 8 days of my life to this…activity. 8 DAYS. That’s allot of time and I want more of it back. Once I have the piercing I will allow plenty of time for it to fully heal but once it has I intend on using it to “cut myself off” sort to speak. (In case anyone is interested I was looking at a device on lustlock.com called the penicap) I finally gave up on the idea of reclaiming the lost days of my life until about a 1.5 months ago. For whatever reason the thought of the piercing came back and this time it stuck. And the more I thought about it the more I wanted it. This is my story:
WEEK OF 7-8-13
I have been thinking about the PA for a few weeks now, doing research, reading experiences on tribalectic, and of course looking for a professional piercer. My first choice I tried to contact via email. I ask some questions about the procedure and safety and sanitation. They never responded. I was having trouble finding another shop that looked trust worthy. I finally came across the APP website and located an APP certified piercer. Pretty far out of my way but hey, I wanted it done right.
Honestly I am an introvert and am glad that the parlor is miles away from the city I live, this way I don’t have to worry about someone I know seeing me and bringing it up later. I don’t feel as though I should have to explain my decisions to my extremely conservative friends and family. I am pretty conservative myself but not to the extent that piercings bother me.
So I called them on the 10th and ask them a few questions and if I could come in on 26th, I had business out there on the 26th so it made the trip less out of my way. They said yes so everything was set. I continued to look for other piercers in case I didn’t like the state of their shop. My second choice was directly across the street from them. I picked this choice based off a recommendation from the piercing bible website. Their proximity to one another was pretty convenient if you ask me. Still I was hung up on the APP certification, it would be about 3 weeks before I came to the realization that APP certification was really not all that it was cracked up to be and did not guarantee that they could do the piercing correctly. It only guaranteed that at the time of certification the shop passed stringent safety and sanitation requirements. I had two other choices which were also quite convenient. These I picked, one based on Google reviews and the other on a recommendation by someone from tribalectic that had their PA done at there.
WEEK OF 7-15-13
I have been a little sick to my stomach all week. I wake up early with indigestion and continue throughout my day nervous and tense. My work flow has suffered allot this week as 80% of my cognitive power is focused on my future date with destiny. Questions race through my mind, most of them inconsequential. Will it hurt, what gauge should I start with, which jewelry style should I choose, will he be able to center it between the glands, do I have the necessary supplies, can I commit to the aftercare, what are the odds of rejection, is there a benefit or risk to starting at larger gauges…the list goes on and on and on…
Some of these questions were important, one in particular… could I commit to the aftercare? I had to be sure that I could and the only way to know for sure was to do it. I began to prepare myself. Each morning and evening I would do a soak of the area for 5-10 minutes (without the sea salt though). I would wash the area separately (as if I was using the antimicrobial instead of the body wash) and made sure to wash my hand first. Hand then piercing then body, this became my habit. I began sitting to pee every time I went and if I forgot to sit I would wipe the toilet down as if I had sprayed all over it. I started unbuckling my belt and unbuttoning my pant instead of just sliding them off. Subconsciously I began to walk as if I was sensitive in that area (not sure how to explain this). Even though I was preparing the habits I would need to undergo this piercing I still have a great deal of apprehension.
Along with my mental preparations I also made physical preparations as well. I changed my diet and began eating more salad and swapping coke for tea and water. Even if I didn’t go through with it at least I would lose a few pounds. Win, win I say. I also began take a multi vitamin to prepare my immune system and a 5mg dose of vitamin K which is supposed to help with clotting so that you don’t bleed as much. I tried to cut all caffeine and alcohol from my diet but reached a dead end on both of those goals. Got to have my morning cup of Joe and of course with all the worrying how could I possibly give up the unnerving elixir that is alcohol.
Emotionally speaking I can tell you that for the last week or so after making the call I was so nervous. I kept having swinging opinions about whether or not I should actually go through with it. As time passed the thought of not doing it became less and less compelling, thanks mostly to reading all the experiences of tribalectic members. As of today I have come to an almost complete peace about what is about to happen. I have little to no doubt that this is what I want. In fact it has become something of an obsessive desire. It is taking all my will power not to disappear after work for a few hours and get it done right now. Hopefully this drive will survive the next few days and the drive to the parlor.
I am no longer worried about all those inconsequential questions and am focused just on the important stuff. Safety, Sanitation, Professionalism. Like many, I was more than just a little apprehensive about getting a piercing in such a sensitive area. I have never had any piercings or tattoos before so that only made me more nervous. At least 95% of people who have posted their PA experience on tribalectic, reported little to no pain and about 99% said the pain was not nearly as bad as they had thought it was going to be. Since the pain was probably one of my biggest excuses to not have it done I made up my mind that either (A) all of you are in on some kind of huge inside joke where you tell people is doesn’t hurt while sadistically smiling in your mind or (B) the pain isn’t really that bad. Logic prevailed and I decided option B was far more likely and made up my mind to have it done.
At this point in time I am definitely thinking that the worst part of the entire experience will be the first week or two of aftercare, but no pain no gain. The thought of getting this piercing is becoming all consuming. If I wuss out on Friday I will probably lose my job because there is no way I can keep up with my work load while thinking so heavily about this. I am thinking that the hardest part for me will be walking through the front door telling them what I want done and then dropping my trousers. If I can get past dropping my trousers I know I will be alright. LOL but then again once you drop trousers your kind of past the point of no return am I right? I consider myself to have pretty good pain tolerance levels so if the majority of people really don’t think it’s that bad I am sure I will be ok.
OK so I called in sick this morning. I have a weak gallbladder and realized this morning that all my tension had upset it. I still had to take care of my business in town because it was important. I haven’t slept well all week so I used the time before I had to get to my appointment to catch a few winks. It was a good thing I did because it probably kept me from falling asleep at the wheel. Since I was out that way I decided to keep my appointment with the parlor even though I wasn’t feeling so hot. I showed up to a very tiny very dangerous parking lot that was hard to get into and almost impossible to get out of safely. Fortunately the inside of the parlor was more impressive. My only concern was how dimly lit it seemed to be but it looked clean and was bright in the important areas, namely the piercing rooms. I was very nervous and came close to walking away with my tale between my legs…and although I did walk away without the piercing I had my tail up and wagging. Credit card machine were down. Apparently something had happened to their internet. I didn’t have the cash to pay so I was unable to get things taken care of. Unfortunately it would be more than a month before business would bring me back this way. I walked away with a strange since of relief and disappointment.
YEH I am not going to be able to wait a month. I have to either find a closer shop or an excuse to sneak away to my first choice. My search found one only 15 minutes away in Alvin, TX. I drove out to talk to them. I ask them if they did the piercing and about their safety and cleanliness. I made sure they had an operational autoclave and a sharps container. The piercer said he only pierces on certain days. Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Today being Monday meant that it was a no go. It was for the best anyway because I had to go and entertain small children every night until Thursday. With a week of relay races and hacky sack ahead of me I figured it would probably not be a good idea to have a fresh piercing, what with the high risk of trauma and what not. I told them I would be in Friday evening.
I had to drive two of the children home tonight. Perhaps ironically, the trip passed straight thru Alvin, TX. On the way home I gave serious thought to stopping and getting it done. I didn’t though which turned out to be a good idea. Shortly after passing by the parlor I received a call from my overly conservative family. Can you imagine if I had received that call while I was on the table? OH man, dodged a bullet there.
I had to drive those two same children home today. The temptation was to great to resist. I went to the parlor. My cell phone battery conveniently “died” (*cough* I turned it off) I parked and walked up to the parlor. I was greeted by a very friendly staff. Unfortunately… the piercer had just left to go to home depot. They were rearranging the layout of their shop and he to get some supplies. They gave him a call and he said he would be out for at least 30 minutes. Well darn I thought, 30 minutes for him to here and at least 30 minutes to have it done. There was no way I could be off the radar for that long. I had to pass tonight. So I said see yah tomorrow and left.
Its P-day and I have never felt such an odd mixture of anxiousness and nervousness. Why does it feel different this time…more intense like somehow I knew that it wasn’t going to happen the first time but this time it was going to happen! It feels more real this time! I woke up early and got to work early. It was easy to do since I slept better this week. I also worked through my lunch break and got off work early. I had told them I would be there at 7pm but got there at 5:30. This was the first time I met the piercer, Daniel Ritchey of Wild West Tattoos, face to face. I had done some heavy research on this shop and this piercer. I think that I creeped him out with the amount of information I had on him. I knew his age is resume is piercing license number his aliases and much more. I knew that even though he had worked there for a long time he only took ownership of the shop a few months back. When you have worked as a bounty hunter for a while you get pretty good at gather information on a target. Anyway after confirming that my information was accurate by throwing him a series of misleading questions that he would only be able to answer if everything was as it should be. Once I knew my information was accurate I knew he was a very experienced piercer. Over 12 years of professional piercing. He had even performed the PA on himself. Although he did admit that he did his to close to the tip and lost it. He claimed he had learned his lesson though. Of course I wanted to make sure…I ask him to set the piercing a little farther back then he normally would and after he marked the location he let me check it. I then ask him to go just a little farther down. I am fairly certain I have plenty of room for stretching to even large gauges.
Just after closing the curtains some of the staff asked if they could watch. Thinking back on it I am pretty sure she was just joking. It could have been that she was an apprentice interested in learning the procedure but if she was joking it was pretty cruel. I was nervous and a little uncomfortable already. My heart was pounding my head was becoming lite and my vision started to blur. It like my body was trying to get me to walk away by making me thing I was ill or something. The piercer sensed my discomfort and the fact that I was totally caught off guard by the question and told his staff to let it go. I really appreciated that compassion however, I seem to have acquired a new level of confidence and, looking back on the situation, I wish I had let her come in. I wanted someone to take my cell phone and record the experience but I was not thinking about anything but that moment at the time. Oh well lost opportunity. I hope I never need to be re-pierced but if I do or if I decide to get another piercing I will definitely have someone record it. While I was there the piercer mentioned that he also did bead implants. I am currently not in a relationship and as intriguing as bead implants are they would not help with my chastity endeavors and I doubt they bring much satisfaction to oneself when doing a solo run. Of course I don’t know this for sure.
He pierced me with a 10ga needle and I was soon sporting my new 5/8” 10ga CBR. I know you want to know about the pain. The receiving tube was a little uncomfortable at first but actually felt pleasant once it was in. Now for the needle…A lot of people say the receiving tube is worse…not for me. I would say the pain was a high 3 or low 4. But I want to further qualify the pain. Once it was done, I thought about it and I am pretty certain 1 or 2 of those pain points were all in my head making the pain itself a high 1 or low 2. The pain was over in less than a second and overall I would agree with the majority of people that we pysch ourselves out so much that the stress we go through is worse than the pain by like 100 times. The only thing I think the piercer should have done that he didn’t is put a glove over the bandaging. Probably my mistake for not asking but hey I was excited. Since I didn’t have a glove I would up getting blood on my pants and underwear during the ride home. Fortunately I perceived this problem and wore dark pants and underwear.
Just before the my first sea salt soak I took a leak and blood came out, but it came out in a stringy blobby sort of way. Like perhaps it had congealed. I knew it would bleed but didn’t think it would be like this. It was weird the way it came out and I would have been worried about this if I had not read about some other people with similar problems. This has since ceased though and now I am just getting a little bit of blood. No worries though as I know I still have a few days before the typical bleeding period has passed.
Honestly I am slightly disappointed. I have read so many posts by people who say immediately after getting the jewelry in, they love the look and feel of it. I felt the jewelry go in but after that I barely felt anything at all. In fact, I would go so far as to say that if I didn’t know it was there I would swear it wasn’t! Even still, knowing what I know now I would have still gotten the PA. Getting it done is like proving something to yourself and seeing what your made of and if you have the courage or power of will to overcome a fear that any person in their right mind would have. Besides, maybe I just need some larger or heavier jewelry. Perhaps I will try niobium when I move to 8ga. It is supposed to be a little heavier than stainless.
I did feel it early this morning. You guys know what I am talking about, a little bit of pain and a little bit of blood. I think my piercer made the right choice going with the 5/8” instead of the 1/2”. The bleeding really hasn’t been bad since the initial Sea Salt Soak. I didn’t feel like explaining bloody clothing so I wore a diaper last night which caught all the blood. I am glad I thought ahead and bought those diapers.
Every once and a while I get just a twinge of pain, but I am not even sure it’s coming from either of the jewelry holes. It feels more like its coming from the side of the head or maybe it’s all just in my head.
Stepping out for lunch today was an interesting experience. I am starting to feel the jewelry more especially when I stand up, sit down, or bend over. I wouldn’t go as far as to say that it is sensual but it is slightly pleasant. FYI on my piercer’s recommendation I bought non lubricated condoms to wear to catch the blood drip. Originally I had bought latex gloves for this however I am really glad I took his advice. The condoms are more expensive than the gloves but they are easy to transport and stay on way better. Besides you only need them for a few days while the bleeding comes to a stop. I think my bleeding phase may be coming to an end. I change the condom every time I use the restroom and the last time I went there was almost zero blood. Less than a drop I would say.
On a very good note I find myself more focused on my work again. Something I was struggling with when the thought of what I was about to do was racing through my mind. Oddly enough even though I don’t really feel it down there very much I must say I am excited to gauge up. I will of course take my time and wait at least two months before I give any serious thought to gauging up. I will also return to my piercer for the initial gauge up so I can see how it’s done but I think that I will order my own jewelry and just pay them for them… (Clears throat) install.
Just took my first wiz standing. I actually have a pretty strong stream. It does tend to fan just a little on the tip of the jewelry but it all winds up in one nice tight stream that looks the same as before the PA. I will admit the finish is not as glamorous. When u have pressure behind it you’re fine but once it slows to a trickle it can get messy.
One of the common complaints of people on here seems to be that they have thought about it for a long time and when they finally got it done they regretted not doing it sooner. I have to say that I am now among those people. Even though I had only known about it for 6 months or so I wish I had done this back then. If I had I probably could have achieved the necessary gauge for the chastity device I wish to wear.
I have noticed a little bit of white puss like substance around the fresh wound, but from what I have read this is normal. All in all its been very smooth sailing. I am performing the aftercare religiously and am experiencing no swelling no pain no tenderness. I am being extremely cautious not to cause stress or trauma to the area. I am probably being a little overly cautious but better safe than sorry am I right? I find myself tempted to play with the jewelry and keep reminding myself that I must leave it alone during this delicate healing stage. Additionally I have been using emu oil as I have heard many great things about it.
I still can hardly believe that I actually went through with it. I when I look down at it, it feels surreal.
Woke up too mister morning wood again. At least he let me get a little more sleep this time. Only the tiniest of blood smudges this morning in the diaper. I am pretty sure my bleeding is done as long as I don’t inflict any trauma to the wound site. I will were the diapers and condoms for 2 more days just to be on the safe side but yeah it’s looking good. I know what people mean when they say their piercing looked healed after a week. Mine almost looks healed but after reading so much on the piercing I know that it heals from the outside in which means in a few more days it will look healed from the outside but the inside is still healing.
A word of advice about those condoms, if you think that you can unroll them enough to get just past the glands, and that it will stay there…think again. Not only did it slip off but it worked its way out of my underwear, down my pants leg and onto the floor. That was a little embarrassing lol. Since the condom fell off nothing is really supporting the piercing so I am feeling it a little more than before. I am still not bleeding, which makes me happy. I have switched over to boxers as they breath allot more which most people say helps with the healing process.